A wonderful memory worth to be written on a paper with my own hand...





I am sorry the writing was bad, since i wrote on the bed n right before i sleep...

Its been  a week since the school reopens. During the form 1's orientation, looking at the 13 year old kids roll up to skool, honestly they arent as cute as those primary school's toddlers when they first came to *school*  >: P, crying and asking they parent 's to stay ='.'=, lol. Well i was actually a salesman selling our prefect board made calenders, but later on was assign to Registration section. Hehe, i got work to do instead of wandering around, i am quite happy doing the job since i get to Speak out and asking parents for signature. At first i am kinda nervous and even spoke too fast and tieing the words together..so parents reply was "i cant hear u..". omg it was embarrasing! Furthermre, i need to ask the parents wheter their child was a prefect or not!..some of them fire me with "does it make any diffrence if my child is!" OMG wat should i respond! so like always i just runaway from problems and say, "nothing actually, we just want to noe, that's all" Waa!! will they think i am a liar or something! *pray* hope they dont mind...So after that, back to the salesman post with rasyad,pradheep and david,*didnt rasyad ask david to wear something?or issit Rus n Hana? hehe*.Yah, actually Rus n Hana, also sook jean if im not mistaken, help us later on, cant deny girls are quite      ahem good promoter. While promoting the calender i just realized that, WHY mostly the buyers were mothers, come on guys..err "wasnt i one of them too?" >'.'<? After all the sales run quite well, left a lil bit only ^^

Few days later, 1st day on skool, i was actually looking forward to it. Meeting up with frens sure is a happy thing to do. actually we alredy met during holidays -_-", wateva. Asigned with my 1st prefect job of the year, 5A class, and Canteen. WAHAHA, at last i am FORM 5! the seniorEST, nth mre to fear ;^P. can jaga the class quite well. want to be mre stern this year, since i am at advantage, lol, maybe..

That day itself, after my sister came back from katholic high skool, i asked her whether she made new frens or not, and she says YES!, and her partner was a bookworm she said, omg so fast she got a fren not bad..so i ask my mom if i was the same when i was form 1, i forgot alredy lor. She says....er.....well...ahem...no....IYA!! am i such introvert person that time?! oh no...she even said i actually wanted to quit skool, and i cried too..bcos of not having any frens..bertrand n hon sam was my 1st fren there, n the truth is i only befriended stanley and edwin around mid year. And to think of that, i alredy had so many friends now. *so happy* :P.

Lastly, its quite late now, 10:40 pm. gona stop actually, BUT i really need to speak this out. Gerard Wasnt BAD at ALL during the form one orientation' in the afternoon, oh he spoke so freely in front of the form ones as if they were frens long time ago, impressive..i am absolutely have NO courage to do that. well i stayed there all the time looking at the kiddies. haha, shahira keep asking me if i am tired or not, and i should take a chair and sit. I am a man! how could i be tired, LoL. nola i just don want to..thx shahira <(^.^)>.

Ok, i better stop here, kinda late now, sleep early cos its healthier >:0  good nite everyone!!

    Exactly on Christmas, my neighbour had a wedding for his daughter. Wooshh my very 1st time attending a malay's wedding. Guess where it was held XP....under the verandah..NO! It's held inside the USJ5 agama school hall!!. I'd played badminton there before. The couple was sitting on the err..chair and fanned by some sort of escorts all the time. At last we had a malay cuisine lunch and it was a enjoyable one. After that i get to shake hand with the bridegroom but i was ignored by the bride..well she was busy talking with others so i was neglected..then we went home but didnt celebrated christmas quite well, just went shopping at summit >_< such a waste for christmas..

Today, my new blog is complete..maybe i am going to show it to u guys tomolo..doesnt feel right about it today.

Anyway, as the tile said i am really disspaointed, not to someone else but myself. i feel even depressed with the song "amazing graze" humming from the radio currently, when i am writing this. Well the story goes like this...

    In a lovely morning, i woke up. With the new awoken heart, i am looking forward to meet my friends in skool. On the way cycling i tell myself:
    "YES i get to see my friends"
    "YES i get to talk to them happily"
    "YES i get to make some jokes with them"
well in the end i came up into the room, sat there quietly, feeling not belonged to them. Throughout the whole meeting, i did nothing but staring at the people in the room. well i did talk a little. I saw rasyad came in, well he is a friendly person himself, and so everyone greeted him, playin around n he, too did the same to them. So i was thinking why cant i do the same like him, not that i like to compare..but at least 10% of his ability i would be happy *sorry rasyad i dont meant to pick on u*  But latter, i just went home n thinking "werent u suppose to talk to them at the tops of ur heart..luffing with the jokes u made? You need to be URself, not to compare URself with the others" finnaly i realised i am just a failure myself, oh well i guess i tend to be nervous while talking, cant find the right thing to talk about, always the same old boring question: what, why, where, who, how .Come on find some interesting topic to talk about. Man i need to work myself up, thinking this wouldnt do if my whole life is like this..oh well i wrote this at 10:38 pm kinda late huh..well cya guys..sweet dreams