Dissapointed « Shiro no Hana

Once in a golden hour I cast to earth a seed. Up there came a flower, The people said, a weed. To and fro they went Thro' my garden bower, And muttering discontent Cursed me and my flower. Then it grew so tall It wore a crown of light, But thieves from o'er the wall Stole the seed by night. Sow'd it far and wide By every town and tower, Till all the people cried, "Splendid is the flower!" Read my little fable: He that runs may read. Most can raise the flowers now, For all have got the seed. And some are pretty enough, And some are poor indeed; And now again the people Call it but a weed.

White Flower.

Thursday, December 22, 2005:

Dissapointed

Today, my new blog is complete..maybe i am going to show it to u guys tomolo..doesnt feel right about it today.

Anyway, as the tile said i am really disspaointed, not to someone else but myself. i feel even depressed with the song "amazing graze" humming from the radio currently, when i am writing this. Well the story goes like this...

    In a lovely morning, i woke up. With the new awoken heart, i am looking forward to meet my friends in skool. On the way cycling i tell myself:
    "YES i get to see my friends"
    "YES i get to talk to them happily"
    "YES i get to make some jokes with them"
well in the end i came up into the room, sat there quietly, feeling not belonged to them. Throughout the whole meeting, i did nothing but staring at the people in the room. well i did talk a little. I saw rasyad came in, well he is a friendly person himself, and so everyone greeted him, playin around n he, too did the same to them. So i was thinking why cant i do the same like him, not that i like to compare..but at least 10% of his ability i would be happy *sorry rasyad i dont meant to pick on u* But latter, i just went home n thinking "werent u suppose to talk to them at the tops of ur heart..luffing with the jokes u made? You need to be URself, not to compare URself with the others" finnaly i realised i am just a failure myself, oh well i guess i tend to be nervous while talking, cant find the right thing to talk about, always the same old boring question: what, why, where, who, how .Come on find some interesting topic to talk about. Man i need to work myself up, thinking this wouldnt do if my whole life is like this..oh well i wrote this at 10:38 pm kinda late huh..well cya guys..sweet dreams

Yang blogged on 08:49 pm

Stanley
January 3, 2006 07:47 PM PST

Yeah! One thing I couldn't understand myself is whenever Rasyad comes into the prefect's room, everyone (Pradheep especially) starts to make a hoo-ha out of it. As though they are expecting a celebrity.

But all Rasyad did was, well, be jolly himself and make jokes that appealed to them. Some jokes just come naturally.

Perhaps maybe you could wake up someday and tell yourself in the mirror, howdy hey, I'm going to have a helluva fun day and just smile and smile and I'm just going to love myself and be around people who feel things wouldn't be the same without me.

Believe me, thing's aren't going to be the same.
Yang
December 29, 2005 08:17 PM PST

IMRAN!! Sayin that u too cant talk with frens is not tolerated, especially being the head urself!! lol jokinla, well i suppose i am just bad mood at the moment. Anyway those words are comforting, arigatou^^.No doubt u guys are watashi no komodachi (friends of mine) :P. Domo domo.
M. Khalil Imran
December 29, 2005 08:06 PM PST

Hey just stoped by and saw this entry. Failure huh..well I can't very much judge you but I very much think you're not that. Hey if you think not being able to talk with friends is a sign of failure, then I'm one to.

"Being called a failure is bad, but calling yourself one is much worst"

*Everything written in here are copyrighted products of Muhammad Khalil Imran*

Don't even quote me... XP
KiRA
December 29, 2005 03:42 PM PST

Hey there. I know this comment is extremely outdated and you might have gotten over the whole thing already.. but anyway, I know, for a fact that you're anything but a failure. We all have our days.

I'm sorry. I realised that I didnt say much either that day, probably only smiled at you.

I hope you're feeling better. Don't be too hard on yourself. You're a great person, no doubt about that =)

Your buddy,
Shahira
�

Leave a Comment:

Name

Homepage (optional)

Comments

....................

Home

Well my name is Han Yang, you can call me Jacob too. i am 15 this year and i stay in Subang. I like to play basketball n cycling too. U can contact me by email: taiho_8@hotmail.com. *OMG i sound so dull -.-"*

Currently watching
. Black Cat
. Eyeshield
. Blood+
. Sousei no Aquarion

Download animes
HERE

-Stan
-K. Imran
-Eugene
-Yin Kit
-Kok Hou
-Grace
-Marcus
-Farah



Message

Contact Me

modified by: me
original design by: dreamwalker
game scripted by: Lancer
picture from: StockStash
edited by:

BLOGDRIVE

TEMPLATES

Blogskin